January 2009
33 posts
Freakin Smileys
Stupid smileys and exclamation marks. Even though You may think they help. They really don’t. They just cut the gashes even deeper. Just cause me more pain. Just cause me the embarrasment I feel everyday. Just feed the false hope deep inside me. You build me up, just to knock my feet from under me. Chances are your not doing this on purpose, Because I know your a better person than this. But...
With those three words.
I realize just how stupid i’ve been To ever think of this in any other way. All I can do now is get up and keep going forward. Pick up all the broken pieces, And work to glue them back together again. You know how people say ignorance is bliss? Well, I just realized how very right they are. Because the truth really does hurt. Those three words, is all you had to say. And now I know....
Push Pull Factor
I feel like the tide on a warm summer night. Only difference is, this feeling isn’t so warm.
Can never sustain this climax.
At one point I’m out, but then the next point you just pull me back in.
I have no control over this roller coaster ride. Up and down. Up and down. Not sure where the next turn is going to take me. I keep trying to dig out of this hole. But each time, something new...
The end of January 25, 2009
Probably the best couple of hours I could ask for. I helped out a really good guy. He helped me out by being able to relate. I talked to a few of my favorite people. I think maybe, just maybe, I’m inching ever so closer to my ultimate goal with her. I took a couple of strides in my over all resolution of living a better, clearer life. My music led me to comfort and relaxation. Talking was...
Happiness
Swells inside of you. Tears at every muscle in your body. When people say butterflies, it doesn’t get close to describing this feeling right now. I want this feeling to last forever. Blood is tingling in every inch of my body. My heart is beating a million times per second. Just for you. I can hardly move. Can hardly speak. Exhilarating. Is this happiness? If so, I never want to let you go. ...
The Weather.
Is probably the biggest influence on my mood ever. Today is such a horrible, gross, depressing day. Not because what is going on though, just this crappy weather seems to affect everyone. How bipolar.
“Hate is too great a burden to bear. It injures the hater more than it injures...”
– Coretta Scott King
Thank You.
even though I might not be the most accepting person.
I can accept when someone makes a good point.
I needed a good thinking moment for the day.
Now it’s time to go do stupid world history homework.
Wrong place at the very wrong time.
Don’t you just HATE it when your somewhere and everything works out where it crumbles on top of you?
If you don’t know, then get to know.
Because it sucks.
Thoughts.
Hmmm.
Why can’t perfection be achieved? Why do people have to be regular?
Well here’s why.
If people were perfect, Life would be filled with a bunch of thoughtless, mindless, zombies who walk the earth just doing what they have to do.
Life isn’t about perfection. Life is about imperfection.
Imperfection is beauty. Imperfection is love. Imperfection is happiness.
Screw perfection. No...
Great music, from an itelligent, wise, and sublime...
wait wait wait.
Those are Ding Dongs! not Bing Bongs! haha, a ding dong sounds good.
I still don’t know what a bing bong is…..
BAHAHAHAHAHA
i don't know about you
but a bing bong sounds good right now.
what ever it is…
LOL
Messin with my Mind.
Ok, I’m usually a solid person, like I don’t let people’s actions or words influence me in any way what so ever.
But the last couple of days I’ve been so wrapped up in you I can’t even think straight. My whole judgement spectrum is out of wack and I can’t stand it.
Its hard to even put my stupid thoughts down on this stupid blog.
Confusion has become an...
Lastnight
I was walking home from luke’s house, and it was only me and no one else. Well, during that brief 5 minutes I was in my own little world and nothing else mattered. It was the greatest feeling in the world. Not only was I separated from society, but I was happy. I have NO IDEA why I was happy, but it was just a feeling that engulfed me. It was probably the highlight of a not so great week....
Tomorrow.
Big day tomorrow, like REALLY big day tomorrow. Wish me luck =)
Hopefully it goes well. Not really a nervous person, but right now I’m pretty much anxious…
Puzzles
Today during one of my thinking sessions, I thought of a perfect symbol for life and all it’s hardships. Life is like attempting to do a million piece puzzle, blindfolded. No matter how hard you try to make the right decision, it always turns out to be wrong. You can get as frustrated as you want, but that will only deter you from your ultimate goal. Only sane thing to do is keep trying to...
Submission.
Adversity comes disguised in many costumes. Not passing a test. Making a bad first impression. Not making a club or team. Or even economical hard times. But however this burden is hidden, when faced with a choice, you must never succumb to to submission. Because no matter what, determination and hard work will easily carry you to where you want to be. No matter what happens, what people say, or...
Why...
settle for the shade when you can walk in the sun?
Don’t you love how music is able to grab you...
Doesn't matter
Hahaha, today was a pretty zen day. School didn’t even matter, the sun was out, and I got to leave early. Yes, I missed some people, but you know what. It doesn’t matter. why? Well, because right now I’m fine with loosing something. I’m fine with just being me. No, one else. Just me. Although someone next to me would be great, I don’t NEED anyone at this point....
Why worry about the little things?
In the end, none of it matters.
The little things are what kill friendships. The little things are what ruin families. The little things are what destroy marriages. The little things are what change you. The little things are what make you different. The little things are what worry us. So why worry about the little things? Dont. Because in the end, they’re Irrelevant.
Listen
Relationships
Blood rushing through my veins, heart beating out of control. Want nothing more but to lean over and give you a soft kiss. Standing on your doorstep, turn and look like a fool. What are you doing running from what’s meant to be? Why not take the plunge?
Steal my heart and never give it back. Becuase its useless without you in it. But, you don’t see through my eyes. But, you don’t feel through my...
“Unless one attempts to talk to all sorts of people and discover what they think...”
– A person that knows.
“Missing a part of Texas…
And I wish it would return.”
– difficult times.
Stupid School
Growing up everyone tells us to “stay in school” or “never say never” but right about now I think everyone will agree with me on the fact that school is worse than it possible could ever be. I miss the days of maccaroni sculptures, or sleeping in on nap time, or kissing that girl on the playground… Now why can’t we resort back to the simply days? Well,...
“Dreams only last untill morning. So how long are you planning to make tonight?”
– me
